by At Dusk

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    Lavish 8-panel J-card of art and lyrics. Over an hour of plodding, yet high-minded suicidal black metal in the tradition of Make a Change...Kill Yourself, Hypothermia, etc.

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released October 14, 2014



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Track Name: Anhedonia
When ev’ning drapes all earth in purpled gown
Tarry I awhile upon green knolls
Longing for strength to fling my body down
and drown the wakeful anguish of my soul
for love and beauty all pervert and sour
and scarce-remembered pleasures all disgust
wilst hedonia lay benighted in her bow’r
all ever I have loved dissolved to dust
rebuked be talk of venerated sage
for in the very temple of delight
they say soft sadness pays rev’rent homage
wilst my mind’s halls remain devoid of light
though Melancholy tendeth Joy in rhyme
Yet I have ne’r gained entrance to her shrine
Track Name: Agonia
entranced ever by reveries of pain
in stasis held, by agonia captive
now malcontent to kneel at beauty’s fane
for loveliness to me no longer lives
on unknown paths clouded as darken’d glass
meander i alone through ceaseless days
on shores of the wide world, although so vast
no pleasures i perceived with veiléd gaze
aloud i begged relief from cognizance
wherein naught but oiziac strife abides
but nature’s deaf to agonized lament
vain howling stirreth not the eunoch’d sky
no succor awaits those whom life’s enslaved
until life’s carcass rots in putrid grave
Track Name: Miseria
drown’d in endless thoughts at evening’s close
fain to accept this extant life as real
and as i fell to fatigue’s cold repose
black wells of sickness did my spirit steal
weak hope calléd to seek a shred of worth
in finding what was sought, no treasures lay
powerless to turn ‘gainst constant hurt
in vain to blindly grasp at pleasures fay
to misery hath all travailings led
’tis true, new pains await at every turn
only a fool would rise from ennui’s bed
thus lie entombed, for all the world, a worm
when failure’s count exceeds sands in the sea
and victories hath ever prov’d empty
Track Name: Melancholia
often i long that i may cease to be
trapp’d in a mind that melancholy shaped
as one glutted by proserpinal seed
the weight of darkness cannot be escaped
for when sometime i find a trace of light
yet still some nyctian thought within me burns
and soon quixotic comfort fades from sight
inevitably hopelessness returns
and when that melancholic fit shall fall
sudden from heaven, like a weeping cloud
i shall not flee from pain’s stygían pall
but sink deep, deep into her deathly shroud
though respite brief may come of pretty lies
the truth of suffering ever survives